{"id":1491,"date":"2025-10-13T02:59:31","date_gmt":"2025-10-13T02:59:31","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/diegoquemadadiez.com\/?page_id=1491"},"modified":"2025-10-13T03:13:21","modified_gmt":"2025-10-13T03:13:21","slug":"elementor-1491","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/diegoquemadadiez.com\/es\/elementor-1491\/","title":{"rendered":"Script Translated to English"},"content":{"rendered":"
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La Morena<\/b><\/h2>

Script Translated to English<\/strong><\/h3>


Off screen voice:<\/p>

It\u2019s hard to be different<\/p>

They call me \u201cLa Morena\u201d, the dark one, because when I first hit the streets and was out there in the park and the square, all the people who hung out, the whole gang there gave me that nickname. They said: We\u2019re going to call you La Morena, they just started calling me that, and it stuck, La Morena<\/p>

From the time I was little I wanted to grow up and live my life and all that, but even then I knew that I was wrong to sell myself like that, I was so young, but when I grew up, the other life began<\/p>

I was raised as a boy, but then I was out of grade school, I went through grade school as a boy and all that, but then when I got to high school I was transformed, I didn\u2019t feel the same, and you know, I had to get on with my life.<\/p>

The first women\u2019s clothing I ever wore, I like\u2026liked it, it made me feel good, and well, I could see that with being all made up and dressed up in drag a little change was happening and you know, I liked it and so\u2026 then I wore drag<\/p>

I felt\u2026very light, more feminine, I felt feminine, and that gave me the courage to accept and then I said, yes, yes I am, gay<\/p>

I no longer cared what people said\u2026if God knows, then let the whole world know, nobody feeds me I preferred to get on with my life and I am doing just that<\/p>

(song \u201cdie ugly ones, die ugly ones\u2026die ugly ones, all the ugly ones must die\u201d)<\/p>

I like wearing dresses, my mother has seen me, and she likes how I look, says I look good in a dress, but that I better not let my stepfather see me like that<\/p>

Then there was my stepfather, who we say always treated us worse than dogsThat\u2019s why I say that I was never loved, none of us were loved, always abused\u2026and I used to say, ah, when I can\u2019t wait to grow up so that someday I can treat him the way he treated us<\/p>

He was the first one to figure out that I was gay, then, he said he didn\u2019t love me that way, that I needed to change, and that if I didn\u2019t, I couldn\u2019t live at home anymore<\/p>

For us it was very hard to be ourselves around our parents<\/p>

I don\u2019t know\u2026 people were always telling them a lot of things about me, and trying to make them feel embarrassed for having a son like me, and then there was going out with them, if they\u2019re not ashamed then I am ashamed to go out with them\u2026for me, I am embarrassed when I go out with my mom, but she says that she isn\u2019t, that it isn\u2019t embarrassing for her<\/p>

So for us, love is difficult, it is very difficult for us In the beginning, yeah, we feel loved and all that, but then, when you are with the man you love, it\u2018s like, I don\u2019t know, sometimes we\u2019re just there on a whim or something, but not me, I was there for the love<\/p>

I had my first lover fairly late, at seventeen years old<\/p>

The date was, it was the first of September<\/p>

The guy told me, because I had told him all about my life too, he told me all about his life and we talked about our lives<\/p>

And then he asked me if I wanted to be with him<\/p>

I told him yes, I liked how it happened, I liked the way he felt, how he spoke to me, his talk, how he talked about his life and the fact that he offered me the little bit of cash that he had on him<\/p>

He gave me 200 pesos that day<\/p>

It doesn\u2019t matter what he\u2019s got, this will be good for me<\/p>

So I accepted it from him<\/p>

But I remember that day, that I was older when I had my first lover<\/p>

He says that he wasn\u2019t ashamed of me, that he wasn\u2019t embarrassed by what I am<\/p>

He always took me for a woman<\/p>

He was married, is married to him<\/i>, but for him I am a woman<\/p>

We are seeing each other<\/p>

Right now it has been about two weeks since the last time we saw each other, because neither of us goes out much anymore, or perhaps he does and I don\u2019t<\/p>

And now, I haven\u2019t been out in two weeks, and just now, I am finally going to go out, I am finally going, to see him\u2026for me two weeks is a long time and I\u2019ve really wanted to see him<\/p>

And if I go to The Zone, and if I don\u2019t end up charging or robbing or doing anything else to whoever I end up running off with it is because\u2026I\u2019m going to\u2026it is because<\/p>

I\u2019m still learning<\/p>

First, I said, I am going to make my way in, I am going to start with the men<\/p>

First just going off and doing them, not asking for much, or little<\/p>

Up until now things have gone well for me with them, they give me a hundred, or a fifty, at this moment I am in it because I\u2019m crazy, not because I\u2019m greedy<\/p>

Everybody that sees me thinks I am doing okay, they just warn me to be very careful, and to not just go off with any macho dick that\u2026I need to be careful not to get burned here<\/p>

A lot of the gay hustlers here have gotten sick and I didn\u2019t want to be one of them<\/p>

Later almost any job would be okay although I\u2019d prefer not to work The Zone, no, I\u2019d choose a better job, maybe in a factory or something, or at a company, whatever, anything but working The Zone<\/p>

But then, I won\u2019t have any choice but to work The Zone<\/p>

It is the only job I can take<\/p>

Right now I work for myself, and\u00a0 looking like this, I can\u2019t find anything else<\/p>

My eyebrows are tattooed and that is one of the reasons I can\u2019t find a decent job, so, I can\u2019t find a decent job right now<\/p>

Some places I go they tell me that they can\u2019t hire me because my eyebrows are tattooed, and well, they are, and so even if I did dress like a man they still couldn\u2019t hire me<\/p>

I got my eyebrows tattooed in December, in October, on the 5th<\/span> of October I tattooed my eyebrows<\/p>

I tattooed them on the 5th<\/span> of OctoberI was saying that I didn\u2019t want to draw them on anymore, that I was sick of plucking mine out, that I wanted them tattooed on\u2026and so I tattooed them<\/p>

That way I don\u2019t have to fight them anymore, and if I feel like wearing them another way I\u2019ll just cover them up<\/p>

I cover myself with makeup, I cover it up, no fight, and that way I don\u2019t have to struggle<\/p>

I don\u2019t have to buy tweezers to pluck anymore or eyebrow pencils because my eyebrows are tattooed on permanently<\/p>

So, right now I can\u2019t find work as either a man or as a woman<\/p>

I want to go somewhere else, I mean what I want right now is to go to Tijuana to work<\/p>

I want to see if over there I can sell myself as I am<\/p>

There maybe I can change, dress in drag, from now on I only want to wear drag, be more feminine, you know<\/p>

Right now I should go do it while I still can, because if I wait I won\u2019t be able to, I won\u2019t be able to do the hormones and being my age, old as I\u2019d be, it would be very difficult for me to make that change<\/p>

And so now, right now while I\u2019m still relatively young, I want to start the process<\/p>

And once I\u2019m changed, I can come back here to work<\/p>

I mean, first I want to change before I start working here<\/p>

So first, I\u2019ll do the shots and all that first, I thought I might start on Saturday, getting the injections, but right now being out of work I can\u2019t afford to go have it done, they\u2019re cheap, about 40 pesos, but right now I can\u2019t<\/p>

They said that I should start out with the hormones and then with vegetable oil<\/p>

The hormone shots are to even me out so to speak, make me thin, make my hair grow, and then after that the vegetable oil shots are to make me grow hips, boobs<\/p>

It is a whole litre, but you really only use a quarter of that, but if you use the whole litre, in time, as the days go by, the oil will putrify<\/p>

I always say I\u2019ll never change, even if I change on the outside, I changed and all that, but on the inside I\u2019m never going to change, I\u2019ll always be the same<\/p>

When I was six or seven years old I was raped by my father, my uncles and two of my cousin\u2019s friends<\/p>

Umm\u2026one day everybody was going out, supposedly to a party or something and my cousin invited me to go therewith her, and I believed her, I had no reason to think that she would lie to me, but she it was no party she took me to, um\u2026<\/p>

She took me to a shack, and then she tied me to a chair and left me there, for days and weeks<\/p>

After several weeks had gone by, I had been there with no food or anything<\/p>

They came and started drinking there, my father, my uncles and the boys<\/p>

So they started drinking, and drinking, and they got really hammered<\/p>

Then this friend of my cousin started feeling me up, handling me, and then he started to, he started taking his clothes off and then he took my clothes off\u2026and then,<\/p>

I started screaming, I asked him to help me, I also asked my father if he would help me, but no, but nobody paid any attention to me<\/p>

Um\u2026the guy that did it\u2026he said that nobody would help me, that I couldn\u2019t count on anyone there for help, that we were very far away there<\/p>

The first was one of my uncles, and then my stepfather and then another uncle, and then after that, the other two friends<\/p>

There were five of them<\/p>

Then later on, the next day, they took me home and when they got there they started saying how they had just found me or whatever\u2026as soon as I walked in I told my mother what had happened, but no, she didn\u2019t really believe me, I told everybody in the house but nobody believed me<\/p>

Even though I was telling the truth nobody believed me<\/p>

Being raped scars one for life, I mean, uh, every man that goes through this is damaged, and each time I stared at one of them, I remembered, I could see in them the reflections of the faces of the men who attacked me and that<\/p>

I was afraid of them uh\u2026all of them, if a cop went by, uh, salesmen or workers like that, I saw those other faces,<\/p>

So I say my life, damned as it is, has been marked forever<\/p>

I thought about trying to get back at them and at my cousin, get revenge and such, but why bother, God is there, and God is the only one who knows what is going to happen<\/p>

No, I will never do anything to hurt anyone<\/p>

I have left the past behind, but anyhow it is one thing to forget, to leave it behind is very difficult<\/p>

For me the truth is, that I really have left it all in the past, but sometimes I do remember and it makes me angry<\/p>

Every since what happened that day happened, I have given more and more of myself, trying to figure it all out, was<\/p>

I already that way, I ask, what exactly was it about me, why did that think that I was made to be used like that, was it because I liked it or something, no, it wasn\u2019t that, \u2018cause I never wanted it to be like that, so I already had it in me, it was in my blood, all right<\/p>

My stepfather, after everything he had done to me, did want me to change, yeah, but then he didn\u2019t, he started to see me for what I was, that I wasn\u2019t going to change, and that it wasn\u2019t really my fault, that it was his fault for what he had done to me, and I told him, actually, he told me, you ended up like this because of what we did to you, and I told him, no, it isn\u2019t that so much as the fact that I was already like this, so<\/p>

Now he sees me the way I am and doesn\u2019t say anything to me, on the contrary, now he sticks up for me<\/p>

Yes, I do thank him for that<\/p>

After everything he put me through, he\u2019s helping me now<\/p>

And yes, when I talked to my parents, they said that the only thing I deserved from them was support, never mind rejection or whatever<\/p>

I thanked them and I continue to thank them for their understanding and for accepting me as I am<\/p>

So for me what have changed are my thoughts and my dreams<\/p>

My big dream is to have a baby and the other one is to become a hairdresser,<\/p>

Those are my dreams<\/p>

So I said to myself, I have to think about something else and not, not keep thinking about that<\/i><\/p>

I have to do something to get my mind off of it<\/p>

If I kept thinking about it then maybe I would end up doing nothing with my life, so I decided to think my nice thoughts and to dream, and that was how I managed to get my mind off of what happenedI dream, that, I see a baby in my dreams<\/p>

Oh, and when I have it in my arms, I don\u2019t know what I am going to do, or how I am going to feel\u2026when I see my dreams made real<\/p>

I think I\u2019ll just give him all my love, give him understanding, and give him schooling; a child deserves all that, love and an education<\/p>

I would give my child joy, give him all that I never had, to be able to give to him, to be able to give him love and affection, and\u2026give him the things they never gave me, what I didn\u2019t get, and that is my dream.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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